Questions

I've been quite frustrated the last few days and not sure what to do. I've been questioning my current situation and coming up with few answers. 

I've been presented with an opportunity that, while it could make me incredibly happy, would turn my life inside outside. I've been stressing out, running through all the scenarios and trying to figure out how to take the opportunity and not turn my life completely upside down. I'm fearing the potential change.

On the other hand, I did just spend four days training for this movement certification I'm working towards and I found myself SO happy to be in that room studying with those people. The main tenant of the method I'm studying is if you can improve your movement, you can improve your self-image. I love that it's all geared towards meeting people where they are and helping them be their best selves. A common phrase often said in the training is, "If you don't know what you're doing, you can't do what you want". It helps people become aware of what they're doing, so that they can do and become what they want. And not just in movement. In all areas of their lives.

So if I'm studying this, investing time and money into this idea with the hopes that I can one day teach this, why am I not practicing this myself? If I can encourage people to change themselves, why am I fearing this change in myself. 

I know I'm being vague by not giving out details of what I'm trying to work through, but I think the most important idea here is that I'm scared of the potential change I may have to make even though it might give me the life I want. And I'm not quite sure yet how to let go of that fear.