What does this have to do with finding love? Well, not much really. If anything it helps me avoid even having to think about love. But figuring out what the heck I'm doing with my life ... correction: what I want my life's work to be ... is a major vision for the year.
I decided to get my MFA in Acting because, sure I wanted to become a better actor, but also because I wanted that terminal degree so I could teach. Each job I took in regional theatre and my eventual move to NYC was with this goal in mind. But now I find myself a year and a half into a desk job and it seems like I'm no where nearer to making my dream of becoming a teacher a reality. I am busting my butt trying to get certifications in movement and voice, get directing/producing/writing experience, and finally finish that one-woman show all with the hopes that it might make me a more desirable professor candidate and enable me to be financially secure so I can buy a house with a fence and a yard where my kids and dogs can run around and jump and play!!!!
<deep breath>
<deep breath>
I worry (fear) that I will continue this struggle in 2013 and be no closer to my dream at the end of it. And here's why this matters. Fear holds people back. If I can approach this goal with confidence and assurance, perhaps it could be more easily achievable (and more enjoyable). I can't become a theatre professor tomorrow. I don't know if I can even be one in the next year. I can only control my attitude and my pursuit today. So Boom! That's all I'm going to focus on.
Bottom line: Less worrying about the future and more enjoying the moment.
Cue music!
Cue music!
Can you tell I just learned how to embed videos?!
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